Relearning habits

As mentioned before, I changed to a Linux operating system a couple of weeks ago, I changed to the Bazzite distro and all has been going well, it was easier than I expected, I had very little to trouble shot, nothing that a couple of clicks didn't solve. I didn't even had to use the spooky terminal so far lol.

But as they say, when you change to Linux, you have to give something away. And I understand, as Linux is not a mainstream operating system (we will get at that 15% one day, I believe), there are some stuff that can't be ran on it. For example, games with intrusive anti cheats like Fortnite, Apex Legends or Valorant won't work because the compagny refuses working on their anti cheat to be less intrusive, since these anti cheats will literally monitor your system and kernel. For me, that doesn't play these games, it's not a big deal. Not to say i have an xbox where I do most of my gaming.
I had to thinker a bit to get Honkai Star Rail working, but managed to get a third party launcher to work.

But some stuff, no matter what, will never work... Which brings me to my biggest issue on all of this... The darned photoshop.
Before I start my rant, no, I never paid for Photoshop. Adobe never saw a cent from me and never will. What I had was a portable Photoshop CS3 version that I have been using since I was still in diapers that a dude gave to me in a usb stick. I am self taught on that software and I used it mostly to do pixel gifs. All of the pixel stuff you find on this website was done with my good old photoshop. But, of course, Adobe is peepee poopoo and you can't use their software on Linux. Ever since I have been trying so hard and it sucks so much. I am currently trying to get my head around Libresprite because I went nowhere with Gimp for gif animations...

Another part of me also really loathes that Ibis Paint X (that I use on my tablet and adore) will only allow me to export animations on MP4, gif is not even an option...

I will manage in the end of the day, I am too stubborn to give up on this. Just remember that entreprises that refuse to do official software and alianate costumers are bad and they should feel bad.

- 31/03/2026

The Linux rabbit hole

It all started with a little thing that just irked me a little bit. I wanted to change the color of my taskbar. I wanted to make my desktop cooler. And I quickly realized that it was impossible. It was either black or white. Not even some transparency or something. I had to get 3rd party tools that I didn't feel good about.
I tried to brush that feeling off and just keep using my own laptop, just to realize that it was slow, the fans were always in high gear (I am used to that because I have a gaming laptop, but I was not gaming at all, I was either browsing the internet or just coding???). Ando so, like a trickle, I started to look for solutions to customize or make my laptop feel a bit better, the machine is from 2021 after all and I cannot afford a new gaming laptop in this current time in my life... And everytime I saw a video, the comment session had a person saying something on the lines of "Look what they have to do to mimic a fraction of a Linux's user power", which made me even more curious...
And suddenly I was researching properly, hating more and more all the AI tools and bloat that Microsoft chugs down a user, of loosing control of a PC (that stands for personal computer BTW). So I made the jump to Linux mint ANNND bricked my laptop. Doom. Sadness. Worry. I managed to get a guy to fix it and reinstall windows. I came back running like a little puppy, utterly defeated.
But not really. I went deeper in the rabbit hole, I got a cheap thinkpad, it took me all the courage I had and I installed Linux Mint on it. It went perfectly this time! And then I pushed the envelope a bit, I made a seassion on my thinkpad for my mom to use, I added the printer on it etc and she just used it like it was nothing at all. It had libre office on it, it connected perfectly to the internet, it scanned and printed documents without an issue. if my old mommah could do it... I had to try again.

I went back to my gaming laptop, I managed to install Linux Mint on it. Low graphical games worked perfectly, but other games froze, it was obvious this was not the move. I changed to Bazzite and suddenly, inner peace. All works perfectly. My drivers are there, the desktop feels great, my games work perfectly. Yeah okay, I won't hide that I had to troubleshot things here and there, but when don't we do that on stinky Windslop too?
All the myths about Linux being hard and hispter and for genious just... gone. I have a stupid question? I go to the bazzite server, they help me. I don't know how to do a thing? I look around and find the solution. I feel like using my laptop! I am learning Gimp (rip Photoshop) and LibreSprite and checking stuff like online radios! I feel cool, and I feel like my world got a bit bigger!

- 23/03/2026

Old stuff rocks

Old stuff just rocks. I love old repairable stuff! I love to be able to give a second life to other stuff. I love being able to repair my laptop. I love buy a refurbished laptop for dirt cheap that is repairable.
I hate coorporations that just try to sell you the latest shiny toy which quality sucks! No, I don't want to buy the newest thing, I will proudly use my old thing until it's coughing up dust and can't move anymore.

- 18/03/2026

Sucking my joy away

I know I ain't perfect. I know I can be a bitch. I know I can be annoying and get things to heart sometimes. I know when I hypefixate, I suck...
But I try to make myself happy, I try to solve issues, I proposely avoid things to make my mind clear and calm.
I want to have fun in this website, but now I feel guilty about it. And I know I am screaming to the voice because nobody is here for me, nobody cares, nobody will read this.
Just... I just want to have fun... But I am useless and spineless...
All because stupid ass neocities is implementing poorly how to control websites with adult themes... And because deep down I am just here to code in to the void...

- 07/03/2026

The death of DeviantArt

I recall vividly that all my friends that didn't come from forums, came from deviantart.

I never saw myself as an exceptional artist, but I recall meeting wonderful people with the same hyperfixations as me. People that even to this day I kept a link with, making a jump to real life.
I remember the first time I got my deviantart subscription and just how excited I was to be able to make my profile look unique and personalized.
I still cherish the feeling of getting my first commission there for a handful of points as a young teenager.
At one point, you saw some people moving to tumblr, mostly because of their policy of being okay with NSFW content (ah yeesh man, that aged badly lmao). But I recall vividly still being around deviantart and tumblr at the same time... And in the end, I gave up on it. When personalizing your page was removed, suddenly, it was no longer fun, and as with many users, I just migrated.
With time, the website would become a disgusting and irrecogniseable pit that sold their artists art without consent to oil the AI machine. And I was thankful that by then, I was long gone...

Still to this day it shocks me to see such a fall from grace... Making a void that still to this today, artists have a hard time to fill. Twitter, instagram, tiktok... Art in the middle of regurgitated slop and vile actors... Platforms in where you are only a number to... To betray the ones that made your website, just to cast them out, it's vile.

Internet of the past

I cannot be the only one that just misses the internet of the past.

I'm not saying that it was without its own flaws... But people were aware of how important anonymity was. I would never see a soul giving their name, even less share their face away. There was this rooted knowledge that the internet was the "wild west" so you needed to keep yourself safe.

With all this knowledge that we had, we would navigate this internet and forge friendships in our own ways, after many years of contact and trust.

Even if anonymity was a given back then, there were very few cases in between of people being rude or unpolite, since this medium was so niche, there was a thight sense of community that has been lost over time. Nowadays people will say the most vile things possible, and protect themselves under the excuse of "anonymity", not understanding that they are as vunerable as they ever been just by doing something as simple as creating a darn gmail account.

Yes, dear reader, the internet sucks nowadays, but the indie web is here and I am sure we can make something wonderful to express ourselves and keep ourselves safe.

And please, for the love of pink, just change to Proton or something.